OK.

So you can tell when I don't have much to do at work because I start actually thinking about my life and I start blogging about all the crap I want to do and only scratch at the surface of.

I'm feeling like there are a lot of "phases" I never went through when I was growing up. I always had to be responsible. Since the age of 10 I was left in charge of my sister (who was about 6 at the time). I had to get her up and ready for school, make dinner, do the laundry, do a ton of chores, etc, etc. That was my entire life until I was in college.
When I was 13, I spent my entire summer taking care of my youngest sister who was an infant at the time.

I never had time to rebel or do things I wasn't supposed to do.
I started to a little bit when I was in college, but I didn't do anything worthy of cool points.

I always had a lot of friends, and I always had fun but for some reason now I'm feeling like I missed my chance to do all the stupid things that kids do.

Not that it matters. I'm just wondering how I would have turned out had I been a bad kid. Or just not so uptight and worried about the rules and getting in trouble.

Haha In 7th - 9th grade I was best friends with Chris Cain.
He started hanging out with these kids in the "2nd Ave" crew.
I would hang out with them too, but one time they came to my house and stole a bunch of my cds and broke some stuff in my basement.
My mom would always give them cookies and juice in the morning if she saw them on their way to school. They loved her.
Those kids were really bad.
I think I had crushes on all of them. haha

Anyway, the point of the story is that I want to do whatever I want. It's eating me up inside.