Eff Whatcha Heard.

SS2K10 is in full effect.

Re: Show last Monday

I was doing fine up until a week ago.
Things were going really well and I was finally getting myself to where I wanted to be.
I was just trying to be a good friend.
That's what gets me in trouble though.
Sometimes I have to put myself first.
Now I'm having the same anxiety and the same emotional fears that I was a month ago.
I'm being as strong and as tough as I can, but it's so hard.

Me and BlahBlah

This is what it was like:

Somebody's Gonna Get Skin Cancer.

This lady got on the train today on my way to work and passed by me to share the same pole I was holding onto. It wasn't until I saw her face that I realized she was white. I honestly thought she was Indian - that's how dark she was. I mean, I wish I was tan like that as much as the next guy - but seriously....seriously?

As for me, my salad's bland because they guy didn't put enough vinegar on it...and I know something's definitely up because I didn't even want to sit outside and eat my lunch. And I feel like I want to be alone....and I never want to be alone.

You know those interactions you have with people and they're just light and cool and you don't know too much about each other nor do you care? And you're just cool. But then you learn way too much about each other and you actually start to rely on things that they say and plans they intend to make...basically you start to care that you know this person. Don't you wish you could just go back to when things were a mystery and you didn't know anything and you had "hand"? haha (You know that Seinfeld episode where George loses "hand" because he thinks his girlfriend is going to break up with him?)

Just thinking, that's all.

I really want some Peanut Chews. I've been a total fat kid lately.