"...it's like a carrot in front of a horse."
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Libra.
Normally you are the one who can gracefully hide your feelings in order to make everyone else feel good about what's happening. Today, however, your patience may run thin as you respond impulsively, without giving yourself enough time to monitor the impact of your reaction. Don't be hard on yourself if you make someone uncomfortable. Taking care of your own needs is more important now than keeping the peace.
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Showing posts with label happy ending. Show all posts
Showing posts with label happy ending. Show all posts
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Computer Camp is Over?
This morning I did something that's probably the hardest thing I've had to do so far in my 1 month shy of 25 years on this earth. I'm surprised at how brave I was...I mean, yeah I cried - but I got through it...and got everything off my chest.
Last night there was a montage of memories playing in my head...from "I lost my jacket" and standing out front of the restaurant drunk confessing things I shouldn't have been confessing, and listening to Plastic Little in my room, and "you're amazing - I swear" - to cheeseburgers and margaritas at Pianos and shiny purple coats and Indiana Jones & getting caught in the rain at Union Square - it was horrible. Horrible because I don't want to let go of those memories...or have to supress them. They're my favorite memories to date - and I don't know if anything can top them. It makes me really sad to think I won't be making anymore memories like them to add...
And, to make things worse - that song is stuck in my head. THE song. The one that was supposed to explain everything.
I'm wondering now if this was the reason I was feeling uneasy the past few days?
I think it's ironic that I was having a conversation with Binnie about the situation a few months ago...and she told me I had to do what's best for me because she's been in my shoes and it's not a "happy ending".
Life is funny...
Now I'm left feeling like crap - but in a different way than I was before...
I'm really sad....I feel like my heart is being held together with tape right now.
Today's going to be rough.
Last night there was a montage of memories playing in my head...from "I lost my jacket" and standing out front of the restaurant drunk confessing things I shouldn't have been confessing, and listening to Plastic Little in my room, and "you're amazing - I swear" - to cheeseburgers and margaritas at Pianos and shiny purple coats and Indiana Jones & getting caught in the rain at Union Square - it was horrible. Horrible because I don't want to let go of those memories...or have to supress them. They're my favorite memories to date - and I don't know if anything can top them. It makes me really sad to think I won't be making anymore memories like them to add...
And, to make things worse - that song is stuck in my head. THE song. The one that was supposed to explain everything.
I'm wondering now if this was the reason I was feeling uneasy the past few days?
I think it's ironic that I was having a conversation with Binnie about the situation a few months ago...and she told me I had to do what's best for me because she's been in my shoes and it's not a "happy ending".
Life is funny...
Now I'm left feeling like crap - but in a different way than I was before...
I'm really sad....I feel like my heart is being held together with tape right now.
Today's going to be rough.
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