MY Life.

I Google myself from time to time...today a link came up with information that I wish wasn't accessible to the public. It lead to this:

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(After I scrolled down)

WHAT?!!

Life.

One day I hope I'm in the position to just pick up and go wherever I want last minute.
Rush a passport, book a flight, and go.
Then, after a few days, come back to work.
Maybe I can do that now and just never thought of it.

I Think I'm Sick Of The Internet.

I'm adding the internet to my detox list.
I should actually make a list.
But I won't name specific names when listing a person.
I'll just make up names for people or better yet, I'll use initials.

1. The internet.
2. PK and anyone else who's constantly negative.
3. PW & Co.
4. Andre - well, and drinking altogether.
5. Stupid parties.
6. Fried chicken - sorry buddy...you know I <3 you...but this relationship is hurting me.
7. Chocolate. This hurts me more than it hurts you. :(

Might I just add that there's a time and a place to use the old, "This is me - if you don't like it, then I don't need you" line.

Anyway, see you when I get back.

And this is how I feel today.

"...it's like a carrot in front of a horse."

Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Libra.

Normally you are the one who can gracefully hide your feelings in order to make everyone else feel good about what's happening. Today, however, your patience may run thin as you respond impulsively, without giving yourself enough time to monitor the impact of your reaction. Don't be hard on yourself if you make someone uncomfortable. Taking care of your own needs is more important now than keeping the peace.
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Re: Show last Monday

I was doing fine up until a week ago.
Things were going really well and I was finally getting myself to where I wanted to be.
I was just trying to be a good friend.
That's what gets me in trouble though.
Sometimes I have to put myself first.
Now I'm having the same anxiety and the same emotional fears that I was a month ago.
I'm being as strong and as tough as I can, but it's so hard.

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My very first screen name was "PeedorPants".

AAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh

Black paint.
Black paint.
Black paint.
Black paint.
Black paint.
Art is going to be my "black paint."
It's hard because black paint can't drown songs stuck in your head.

Me and BlahBlah

This is what it was like:

There is a Light and it DOES Go Out.

So against all - and I mean all of my better judgement, I read through something today that I'd been avoiding for months. I read it and all it did was piss me off. I really don't need that. It's my own fault though. You know when you have that feeling in the pit of your stomach that something is wrong? Well you should trust that feeling. Always.
Ignorance really is bliss. Damn it!

In other news, my bangs are extra greasy today for no reason. The rest of my hair is fine. I look like I got caught in the rain - or just my forehead did.

I really want to punch someone right now. And not about my bangs.